Probably one of my most painful injuries yet! Getting stabbed. Still kept asking if I could come out to this DFT to train. Not missing this shit no matter what. 😏🇺🇸 yeah that was a pic someone took of me while in some intense pain. #marines#usmc#training#coldasf hate Virginia still. #surving
Yasss! Healing isnt #yoga acro poses #crystals on ur neck and #tarot cards. Healing isnt dropn shrooms n giggling or working with Aya for fukn fun. Trauma is Trauma! Healing is painful healing is scary healing takes motherfuckn strength! To find your pain and suffering thats been hidden under piles of shit #behavior and #complexes so you neva have to deal with it....then to dredge these fukn things up my rapes and #domesticviolence#loss of my children and having to work this thru muscle memory in order to release this anger betrayal then this forced acceptance in order to carry on....then put the work into reminding myself Im not there in the present moment even though the memories surfacing make it feel like I am and I wana pick up a #sword and cut everyones head off.
To keep waking myself up to be aware that Im healing and noone can do it for me. Dealing with the #rage and loss of power or rather the acceptance of these things has had me scream for death to take me...noone cares..I had to love me forgive them to heal me to understand I could not have #protected myself That motherfuckers including the system will hurt you they out here taking power. Ive been just shovin the pain under the rug since a child to just #survive and thats what kills the most. Your #pain and #anger can keep you #fighting but when you need to heal what the fuck do you call on to keep yourself going. Now you gota call on love self love . Well wat de fuck is that.....work lies here again but with the highest gems. So here you gooooo lets get it out the mud morph this suffering into a #lotus which will heal me and others ... #Wisewaters bb #StrongWomen#Powerstruggles#Suffering#Selflove#healing#trauma#rage#lotus#musclememory#release#surving#staywoke#removecomplex#destroyperceptions#highvibes#warriors