give thanks, there is power in the simple choices we make.
Being a mother... well especially becoming a mother quite young, I shattered a perception I had of MYSELF (putting that in caps cause I am speaking for me... FOR ME)
Anxiety has always been an issue for me, that and doubt... I would find ways to reassure myself of my capabilities, through my religious practice, prayer, faith but truly it wasn’t until I came face to face with one of my biggest fears... and basically had my view of reality shattered quite a few times that I realized all it truly takes to succeed in this life is consistently making a choice... being accountable (cause we can’t be indecisive out here not knowing what to do with ourselves) 😣 and just as importantly choosing to move on and learn when you make the “wrong” choice. The choice to say a prayer of thanks in the morning can literally shift the whole vibration of your day. The choice to use compassion instead of judgement, the choice to sit in quiet and go within and ask yourself why something makes you sad, or mad or ... doubtful. During my pregnancy, I had a lot of quiet moments, a lot of time alone and faced some of my darkest thoughts. I came to the realization that both light and dark resides within our being but somehow we seem to easily and most often identify with our shadows more than our light ... so I challenged myself to stop... I stopped looking at my shadows as if they were what made me and instead switched my perspective to realizing that everyday I rise, everyday I face a new challenge, a new insecurity... it was an opportunity to evolve, to get closer to my best self.. my higher self.
So now, I am in a space where I actively choose to practice positivity, love and light. I choose to exercise my free will in this world that has both darkness and light choosing, not to ignore the darkness... (trust me, I am very aware) but rather, to elevate and vibrate at a high level so that at least if I am not able to change the whole world I can be an example and raise the vibrations of my surroundings.
Because I am aware that I am able to create the life of my desires ... I choose to be love and I choose to be light.
प्राप्यमभिवाञ्छन्ति नष्टं नेच्छन्ति शोचितुम्। आपत्सु न मुह्यन्ति नरा: पण्डितबुद्धय:।। बुद्धिवाले मनुष्य दुर्लभ पदार्थ की कामना नहीं करते। नष्ट हुई वस्तु के विषय में शोक नहीं करते और विपत्ति आने पर घबराते नहीं हैं।... Those having the intelligence of a wise man, do not strive for objects which are unattainable, do not grieve for what is lost and gone & never lose their heart in calamities, remain firm...