Movement is such a great way to begin the day, even if you’re not a “morning person.” Pilates can be adapted to everybody’s needs. From a gentle, flowing session to ease the body and mind awake and stimulate blood and lymphatic flow...Or, a full-body, energetic, powerful Pilates workout. I switch between the two! How do you like to move in the morning?
Up close and personal with the peanut butter cup cookie I snagged as I was running around doing errands. I was craving something sweet after lunch and this baby had my name written all over it. As delicious as this cookie was, choosing it and truly allowing myself it was not easy and here’s why.
I’m not sure where to even begin or what to say or where this post or even my account is going, but I want to be honest with you all- things lately have been rocky. In the midst of receiving some life changing news I relapsed. And it hasn’t been fun. I started noticing I was becoming consumed by food and numbers. I started tracking everything I ate, and when I didn’t like how that was going I said screw it and allowed all hell to break loose. I began to feel as though I didn’t deserve to be happy or free or just plain and simple, live. The darkness and ED behaviors had taken over my life and I’ve become sick of it. This post marks me choosing recovery (again) and continuing to choose it every single day no matter how hard it may seem or no matter how strong the thoughts are telling me I don’t deserve it. ————————
The truth is: things will be ok. Even if I don’t believe it. They will. This post is just meant to be a reminder that relapses happen. That no one’s recovery is perfect. Even that one recovery account of the girl who seems to be killing it, yup- she still struggles. ————————
So here’s to fresh starts, fresh baked cookies, and fresh outlooks on life. I can and I will do this. (Again.) ————————